This spiritual path has a long lineage of success in regards to enlightenment and Self-realization, however it gets overshadowed by worshiping and paths that have a more positive role with meditations. It’s more of a solo preference to keep your eye on the target. This path doesn’t bore or bog you with ideals, history or reasons why it’s better, nor does it require anything. It seems like an ugly path to follow, but I would assert it’s efficient, by discounting things that aren’t supposed to matter, which is mostly everything you think about. You devalue everything in your mind, not letting it take up anymore space in your thoughts. This is one of the tools I used and know well.
This path runs deep in spiritual logic and goes straight at the problem by mentally demeaning nonessential thoughts and things, by looking away from any worldly meaning outside of the Self. You inwardly negate all appearances and words that are unessential to the Self. You’re neutralizing life from the inside, rendering it incapable to distract you from your goal. Everything is worthless to you when you look deep at it. None of this shit is me, all that I perceive is just obstacles in my way. Nothing here can deliver you Home so why do I give it time. You do this because your deep interest in the truth, God liberation, peace, and happiness drives you. The freedom that comes with identifying with the true Self is your rightful heritage, a divinized state that’s waiting for you, so now you get your mind and body in sync with this Eternal tune-up.
You do this with a discerning eye that sees the world as a fraud in order to create a new mindset, which understands the way to Reality is taken by withdrawing your personal interest in the illusionary world. Loosing your emotional interest in the outside drama, or knowing there will be no relief there forces you to look within for relief in a sustained search inside. Knowing full well that the illusion has you locked in, and you have to be really diligent at unchaining your Self dialogue from the mind/body complex, almost like you want to wake up from a bad dream. You have to be willing to do what it takes and go within with a single minded focus on the Self, thus dissolving the universe from the inside out by meditating and talking your Self out of it.
You achieve an internal dialogue which continually sees things as false and not real, thereby counteracting any sway that desires and fears have on you. Since you can only see Eternity through the Self, which is God seeing God, then any pull from outside of that will be counterproductive to your pursuit. You have to do this because this life has us captivated your attention away from the Self, you withdraw that in order to break the spell and see clearly. By retracting your attention back away from the excess mind stuff and redirecting it back on the Self. The clinging illusion is voluntarily surrendered and only God is left. Once all residual fears and desires loose their power to interfere in the process then you are ready to let go of everything, including all concepts that comes with a personal identity, which kept you thinking and believing as an individual.
This path of looking away from everything by insistently denouncing the value and your identity as gibberish goes right to the heart of your Eternal identity, disconnecting from life. If you stick to this path around the clock it will take but a few years to be productive.
I found 90% of my thoughts were completely worthless, trivial and stupid, but you need to catch them as they happen and superimpose a new meaningless type dialogue on them. When thinking of yourself, replace it with; that’s who I thought I was but it’s not the real me, it’s all an illusion of the mind. None of this crap I’m experiencing here is worth the mind time, nor does it have anything to do with me. The whole purpose is to streamline your meditation by taking positive actions in a negative way. The mind will do everything to block you from your goal. You gain control with each thought you catch like doing a rep until they are automatic.
By mentally negating all that ‘It’ isn’t, you rediscover that which ‘It’ truly is.
The one essential ingredient I notice to witnessing is awareness or being conscious. It is easy to get swept by ego, emotions, moods from time to time and it is a challenge to maintain the constant presence. Not presence of mind ofcourse but the presence of being.
I sometimes think of angels to become present because they’re real and without form, as form is still quite a challenge to me.
I think quite some disharmony is created by our inner neediness and if we approach every moment from the place of being complete it allows everything around us to be in harmony which is what I see witnessing as.
I’m able to meditate a few minutes at a time now and it feels really good. I think this path is fun if we can persevere and find out and do what feels good.
Thankyou for all the great insights and explanations.
Hello, Kurt
Still here. I have been finding it quite difficult to keep all my attention on the background behind the head, i always “think”that i am doing it wrong, so i give up and then i start again, on and off. I feel energy in the forehead, tension, while trying to keep focus on the background, is that normal?
Also, i have found this article interesting, it seems to be something that is do able all through the day. Could you clarify for me exactly what and how to do this mental negating, do i actually use thoughts to do this, give me an example if possible, also what will be the overall effect of this?
Can this be done while holding on to the background?
I come to your site ever so often i re read your post and hope to see something new written , but no, have you stopped writing alltogether?
thank you
Not something we want to happen, even with the Kundalini energy you
want more of an isolated area with spiraling energy, and that also can turn
into this type of tension. It sounds like you are trying to hard and the mind
is doing the focusing or the concentrating by trying to use its normal positing
point behind the eyes and sending it backwards. But you can’t use the body
mechanics in this endeavor in order to get beyond the body mechanics. The goal
is to leave all that stuff alone by easing your way back by merely witnessing
the mechanics that are before you. You want to release away from the eyes and
mind and fall back into that rear most position and this usually takes practice
at surrendering and observing. After some time you’ll notice a change in
positioning, and when you start to think during a good meditation you’ll find
yourself back in the minds focal point, it’s like an energy point that the Soul
is uses to direct the mind and body. You want to release yourself from that
point in a subtle and natural way of surrendering control and laying back. Relax your attention away from that point until
you can witness the body’s energy take place before you. You want to move away
from that spotlighted focus in the head and do the opposite by expanding your
focus in more of a wide angle witnessing, which recedes back away from the
action by witnessing it. When you can observe the internal workings of the body
and not use the mind then it is all before you and that means you are not using
that spotlight, then you are there. It is very subtle and distances are hardly
noticeable and it instantaneously happens, you’re ether there or in the head, even
a very slight difference is a big improvement. The longer you can stay there
laying back and witnessing without directing anything in a sort of wide
unforced angle of observation, the higher the chance of the Samadhi State that
blends it all in. When the empty space beyond
the body is perceived to be behind you and the motion state of the body is in
front of you then that is the best you can do besides increasing the minutes
spent there.
The mental negation part is a tool to keep the active mind on the path
during the active day. Our mind wants to keep active and wander, and unless
something important is on the docket it continually strays off into its
illusionary world. There are things in life that need our attention and we need
to get them done, but if you can control the minds direction during the
downtime by giving it something spiritual to chew on keeps you spiritually
active. Whether it be a spiritual passage, active meditation or mental negation
it strengthens your resolve. I trained myself on those until it was all that I
was doing during my spare time, it was automatic. I was ether meditating,
active meditating, thinking about a spiritual stuff or mentally negating life
as I lived it. Negation is like positive thinking towards Eternity by negating
that which stands in the way. It’s like your inner cheer leader reinforcing
your resolve by stripping the power away from the outer world that would normally
hold your attention. This helps keeping your inner world peaceful and powerful
by disrobing the outer forms. By seeing life as a temporary stepping stone or a
hallow illusion that hides the True Reality behind it. Then the drama that is
so personal to the mind loses its resilience to stick on you. Its changes the way
the mind looks at life. Negation sees life as a false, foolish and a limiting
representation of what really is. It looks at life and reinforces the fact that
this isn’t what it seems to be. That eternal stone within you is of the Eternal
Source and compared to that this will seem highschoolish in hindsight, and nothing
that fleeting has the power to stand in the way unless you let it. By negating
distractions on the path it takes away its ability to hold the minds attention
allowing you the freedom to go in without being mentally bothered. You do
everything you’re supposed to do but you mentally work at not identifying with
any of it and not emotionally taking part but just acting out your role. You
look at what’s before you and you mentally defuse it.
This is not real it’s just foolish egos defending their ideological differences
and they really don’t understand anything or know why they are doing it. They
are banking heavily on an unstable mind and instead of working on themselves
they’re wasting all that precious energy for no real reason except for self-gratification.
This job is for income and it has nothing to do with who I am, I’m just
playing out my role the best I can and leaving the responsibilities behind once
I leave.
appearances and think this is all we are, how foolish is that?
Things like that, almost like a movie critic tearing apart the picture.
mental dialog ends and that falls under the meditation part.
new to write about. This sometimes helps me get going again and gives me new
ideas or a reason to go over my old ones.
Thank you Kurt.
I am quite familliar with you said when you talked about the wide angle background and a new positioning, it has happened a few times, it seems that by directing attention towards the back it is first quite concentrated then sometimes it looses the concentrated feeling and becomes wide and there is no edge to it, and sometimes i recognise that i am using the wrong center it is is coming from the front of the head so to speak.
At other times when i am repositioned at the back there is no tension at the front, it see – saws, so when this happens i need to stop and just be the background not focus on it.
regarding the negation, can i say things like
This is just an appearance
this is not real, it is just a dream
nothing perceivable is real,
( love that one from Nisargaddatta) it has come as a direct intuitive knowing these past few days.
This is not me, not who i am
Well, thanks for your help, you have clarified it for me, i know now to let go of the wrong focusing and be the witness instead of trying to look at the witness from the mind point.
I will rectify this and add negation during the day, and get on with practicing, i will probably get back in touch with you in a few weeks down the line.
thanks A
Yea, your’re right on it.