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The Theater Seat

There was this simple man who had simple values, and cherished a simple life style. He lived in a small town, and everyone in that town knew the town Mayor personally as an honest and respected man with well educated advice, and he was one of the few worldly people in the area. Born and raised in the small town the Mayor went on to a big college, and was successful as a big city Mayor before he decided to help his home town community. After twenty years of service he was thinking of opening a spiritual clinic, which was a shock to the rest of the town since he never went to church.

The simple man who was well liked and respected in town as well, decided to have the Mayor over for dinner, and try to talk him into keeping his city position. After all, he turned the city around from a dying ghost town to a thriving community, and everyone loved and respected him, but now he stands to loose all that.

Sitting down after dinner with a cup of coffee the simple man spoke up and said to his Mayor, “Is there something we can do as communities that will make you change your mind? If there is something wrong then let us know and we’ll fix it, we will do anything to keep you as Mayor my good friend.” The Mayor politely responded with a shrug and a smile and said, “Nothing is wrong and nothing could be better. I finished my job here and it’s time to do something that I always wanted to do, which is to teach spirituality.” “How did this happen and why, when so many people depend on you, and you’re a hero to many,” retorted the simple man. The Mayor responded; “You know this exact situation happened to me after my first Mayoral job and it wasn’t easy to explain, so I told them a fictitious story to alleviate any wrong conclusions.” The simple man realized he was at heart of the matter, and probed deep into the mayors past by asking for a explanation on why he left his first job.

Well, the Mayor said, “I will tell you, but first understand I am dead serious about this, and I wouldn’t tell you if it wasn’t the absolute truth.” I understand, replied the man, and I will respect your statement as the truth, and be happy with it, just tell me the reason and I’ll drop it.

While I was Mayor of the big city I would walk to the train station after work and pass by a Yoga center on the way. One time the business owner was locking up when I was passing by, so I introduced myself as Mayor, and he said something unusual.

“Oh no your not, I know better than that,” said the venerable old man, “you never left your theater seat.” What! What are you talking about? Have you lost your mind silly old man? “No!” He said, “You’re the one that lost your mind, because you lost control of it. When you take control of it and realize where your seat is, which your natural identity is, you’ll find out that you never really left your seat, and you’ll start talking like this as well.” “Really, tell me more” replied the Mayor. “Well, I found out that we don’t really die and we were never born, as a matter of fact I never left my seat and went anywhere, it was all a theatrical play and I thought I was in it playing a staring role. Then I found out the joke was on me, because the lights came on and the show ended, then I saw the gravity of my mistake. I realized I didn’t even have a part in the show, just thought I had. Now, I help others in finding that light switch, so they can see their position in the theater of reality.”

That’s strange, what else did he say?

“He told me I was making a grave error in believing that I was a fragile human, when I was Eternal and indestructible.” After a long discussion and follow up meetings he said I was ready, and sent me off with a method and clues, and retorted, “figure it out”….“no one can do that for you”…. “Believe in me and what I say and don’t look back, keep searching for the theater until you find it, and see for yourself, what all the great ones saw, you won’t be disappointed. Because in knowing your true position, you find your own anchor of stability on the open seas, and it is a most valuable asset, for you’ll never be lost again. Look within and away from the theatrical world and perceivable movements of energy, and you’ll find yourself sitting in the pure still sea of Eternity.”

This was all so new to me and I was taken back by the statement, but I was also very curious, and whether he was crazy or not he had me hook, line and sinker. Walking to the station I asked him, what is the theater? And, how do I find this switch to turn on the light?

“The theater is the grand arena of Eternal space that our Soul resides in, permanently, and you find the switch after fumbling around in the dark for some time. But when you do, you see the source of all, and you realize this play was an illusion, which you had bought into, with a ticket called birth. You never find out where the switch is, or how you turned it on, but by following a simple formula, thereby detaching yourself from the play mentally, you start the search for the switch and eventually the theater will be reveled. You’re in essence moving away from the foreground of sensual involvement in the play, to the background darkness of the theater opens up. So, sit back in your seat and know your seat is still, energyless, feelingless, and not perceivable, and what you perceive is the show. When you’re able to look away from the show long enough, the show ends and the theater is visible. Your relentless noninvolvement in the show switches on the original Light of God, in Absolute space, your eternal home. But remember, when you’re caught up in the show, your not looking for the switch.”

I could not stop thinking about what he said, so I went on the search and years later I proved his formula true, which is why I moved back home to live a simple life. Now I feel compelled to help others find their switch, now that this community is in fine working order on a strong economic foundation.

The simple man stayed up all night thinking about this unusual conversation. The Mayor was a shining example of stability over the past twenty years, and he has not misled me or has been caught in a lie by anyone. Why would he lie now? Especially, to a nobody like me? It’s obviously a more important endeavor to him than being mayor, when he is willing to throw it all behind him and start a new. I find that I have no reason to distrust him, and the spiritual life I have now has done nothing for me. If he was willing to give up everything for the cause, it must be worth it, and I have less than he does to give up. It just seems like a grave error not to follow his advice when I can have the same contentment as he has.

The simple man decides to follow his friends counsel and became his number one disciple. After a couple of years of training his teacher told him, “stop searching for the switch, for the switch is your ability to surrender everything and switch it all off for that. So, sit in the stillness of the theater seat, which is your rear most point of observation, and in the darkness which is in-between the observer and the observed, lies the switch. Become the thoughtless observer from that seat, and stay there in that pure Awareness of nothing else but being, and in that place you naturally cast your moorings aside for what’s beyond.”

The simple man went away, and showed up three months later at his teachers clinic, got down on his knees before him for the first time and said, “That which I thought was real and tangible is shallow and superficial in comparison, you have opened my eyes. You truly are one of the great teachers of all that is timeless, I have to give you my deepest thanks and repay my debt by passing on your teachings of the true and timeless words of Spirituality.” Tears welded up in his master’s eyes as he said in a tender voice, “You have already given me the greatest gift of all with the second most glorious day of my life. It is truly one of the best days on earth to receive such a precious gift in return, and now you know we are That, and not this.” The master held out his hands and helped the simple man off his knees. “God has bestowed his grace on you with the glorious vision of his kingdom, now go my saintly friend and help other seekers, for now you are beyond the need of further help.” A long embrace and a few tears dropped from the great joy of the moment, and a sense of awe hung in the air due to the rarity of such an event, and they were basking in it. They parted and never saw one another in form again, but the simple man turned into one of the best spiritual teachers of his time.

Spirituality

Spirituality is the exit ramp off the expressway of life. It shows you another way of living that isn’t confined and defined by the high speed rat race. It talks about the field of wildflowers that thrive and survive in the stillness of the off ramp, and offers a quite refuge from the nonstop pace. It shouldn’t buy into the brainwashing of society that wants you at the same speed as everyone else, to be more productive, so you can buy more things and donate more money. In today’s religious institutions you get very little in return, a few words of wisdom, a lot of wishful thinking, and a real lack of logical answers to big questions. When it should answer all those questions and be an informative discussion on finding your own Realization, so you can be as content as the wildflowers which sit in the stillness of a simple existence, and invite you in unconditionally. It should show you the way by discerning the false from fact, thereby guiding you to your own contentment that is waiting within you. And, you should stop what you’re doing and look inside for it, and the happiness that flowers naturally from it. Real spirituality moves away from the outside world of the senses and goes inward to explore the reality that lies beyond appearances.

Being productive in the world is societies beckoning call, however being spiritually productive is God’s beckoning call, and they are related, as far as duty is concerned. You have your duty to the family and to society by creating a stable environment for it to thrive and duty to God by worshiping in silence through meditation and contemplation. Meditation is the most important component to spirituality because it activates the thoughtless witness, which usually lays dormant, and the witness is the bridge between the Soul (Eternity) and mind. Meditation and introspection on the outside may look unproductive and easy, but on the inside it’s very productive in the spiritual sense, and hard to master. Spirituality is not an easy endeavor; as a matter of fact it might be one of the hardest but most rewarding endeavors of your life. Self-realization will turn your world inside out, and when you do face reality, you no longer see yourself as a human first and foremost. The end goal of spirituality is to see what you really are, which is pure Awareness in Eternal space without the body, mind and universe. Then you’re aligned with the truth, and you find your natural state of existence, that was previously glossed over by the manic doer of the untrue. You go back to the beginning of time, where the core of all things sit as one, and you see where it all comes from and where it all ends up. The wisdom of the Saints is now your wisdom, as you blaze your own trail in the realm of spirituality. You will see life and God as clear as the Saints did and understand the pit falls and stepping stones of the spiritual aspirant, which eventually leads them to contentment.

Spiritual Myths

There are massive amounts of spiritual dogmas out there that place conditions on the spiritual aspirant out of ignorance. The teachers, who are not finding their own bed of wildflowers, speak about others that have, they translate it with the infusion from those who haven’t, and after placing it along side their own ideas of spiritual purity they profess righteousness. In reality, there are no preconditions or outside disciplines to spirituality, just inside work, and it’s an open door for everyone. You could be a big time sinner, an obese meat eater, love sex, lost faith in the bible, commit crimes, gay, handicapped, illiterate, mentally challenged, poor or rich, it doesn’t matter. Some religions enforce rules of strict celibacy, diet, vegetarianism, adherence to disciplines, being completely drug and alcohol free, and some are even gender, race and culturally biased. When you start using strict conditions like that, it makes it feel like purity is way out of reach, and a feeling of being inadequate, faulty, undesirable and unworthy takes over, and along with that the guilt and fear of being that way. Spirituality should not endorse abstinence or regulatory disciplines such as penance for sins, for it clearly does not work, and has no effect on your spiritual progress whatsoever, and in fact it can be counterproductive due to the spiritual ego, however they should endorse moderation. Because in fact, you can partake in all of the above sins and still reach the ultimate goal of Enlightenment, for salvation has no physical prerequisites.

Moderation is the key both physically and mentally, if moderation is not your forte and you consider yourself a hopeless extremist then understandably you must drop certain vices. Because when it occupies your every thought your metal strength is poor, and this battle is won by ignoring the mind. Positive thinking, personal introspection, and spiritual contemplation should play a dominate role in the way you use your mind. If spirituality is the main topic in your mind, then the desire to stray is loosing its sway, which means you’re on the right track. It is stepping away from old mental patterns that the rat race induces on your mind, and replacing it with the wildflower seeds on the fertile spiritual mind that is tilled in silence and introspection. You are not what you perceive yourself to be, nor what society perceives you to be, and in order to grasp this and what you really are, you have to go within and inwardly detach yourself from the perceivable. The imperfect human and world are all part of your personal illusion, and distancing yourself from that, is discerning the real you from the perceived you and that is spirituality.

Sins are the acquired baggage or imperfections that keep you from reaching perfection, but perfection is your Soul, eternal and changeless never out of reach. All of life is an escape, an escape from Reality, to toil in and with imperfection, which means any distraction in life that diverts your attention away from knowing the truth can be considered a sin. Sins are the distractions off the path, and once on the steadfast path the sins are negated quickly by the withdraw of attention, and when you totally give up they’re activated again. Does it matter what you did in the past or what you are doing now, if you are now going to give up on the whole idea of being human? That means you are surrendering all of your personal ideals, as well as the body and mind that housed them, and anything that changes, moves or decays in the world. Looking away or ignoring the temporary identity that’s attached to the body, and start looking for that identity which doesn’t change, an identity that’s saturated with Eternity or Eternal awareness. Working towards self-realization is to loosen your hold on a world that is imperfect and transitory for the real world of Absolute Awareness, which is pure and indestructible. You have to relinquish the old value system that held you hostage as a less than holy or perfect person, and know that you are worthy of being spiritual avatar, saint or teacher. It is the divine right of everyone regardless of what transpired. Despite of all the transgressions, you are pure and perfect at the core of your being, and nothing has the power to change that. Go in and reclaim it, by disclaiming the other.

Faded Black

Show me the color
That won’t go away
A color for all
That will stay

I’ll show you
Faded Black

Show me something
That won’t leave me
Decay in front of me
That will be with me

I’ll show you
Faded Black

Show me someone
That won’t leave me
Will love and hold me
That will be with me

I’ll show you
Faded Black

I see nothing that doesn’t
Return to Faded Black
Matter is Faded Black
Eternity is Faded Black

All is Faded Black

The Road to Eternity

You have to surrender the finite 
    To see the infinite
You have to give up on the temporary 
    To see the permanent
You have to Loosen your grip on the fleeting
    To gain the enduring
You have to see the transient as false
    To see the truth as everlasting
You have to look away from the light of the world
    To see the Light of Absolute Awareness
You have to stop believing in appearances
    To start believing in reality
You have to stop listening to the word
    To understand the meaning behind the silence
You have to turn in and away from the senses
    To see that which the senses can’t show you
You have to stop hanging on to the changing
    To see that which is changeless and pure
You have to know the universe as a brief illusion
    To see Eternity as the infinite reality
You have to surrender all
    To gain all
Including the road
    To Eternity

The Appearance of Separation

Real love sees no separation through differences 
    But appearances give us differences that separate us
Desires and fears takeover and give a rank to those differences
    A personal love develops within those conditions
This personal criteria keeps the love confined and limited 
    Based on personal needs, desires, fears and expectations
Due to the appearance of separation
    Love is conditional
Real spirituality knows no separation by appearances
    But appearances create a personal God
To bridge the gap and hide the feeling of separation
    A personal love for God develops defined by criteria and conditions
A conditioned God based on needs, desires, fears and expectations 
    Due to the appearance of separation
God is conditional
    The real love and true God are lost in a personal ideology
Limited and induced by separation love and God is subjective
    To the personal illusion

Is This All You Want?

If you could come back to the world after death and start over, not knowing what you know now, not knowing who and where you will be born, would you do it? If I could snap my fingers right now and end your life, erase everything, and you will return to the blank slate of a child in an unknown place and family, would you do it? Even if you’re not happy with the way things are now is it still worth starting over? Would you really take a gamble at a new start, and just hope you don’t land in a terrible place? Isn’t that what everyone wants? A fresh start, a chance to do it all over again, in the future experiencing the pains and pleasures of life in an all new generation. Does that sound like something you want to do? If you wanted to change the world, well, here is your chance to do it, because I’ll even let you do it after each lifetime, after erasing everything you know from the previous one. Press the reset and toss everything away and you’ll have to go through the same trials and tribulations of life all over again. Making the same mistakes as an immature youth, and face the hash realities of life as an adult in an uncertain future, without insurances, would that make you happy? If I let you take your mind with you to the heavens, would you do it? Is that really what you want? Do you really love your mind that much to be stuck with it forever? Is your mind a good thing to take with you? Having an uncontrollable mind that’s on full speed forever, is that a good thing to have? Do you really want something like that haunting you forever? It would bring all your problems with you, fears, desires, anxiety, disharmony, and is that really what you want? Will you be happy and satisfied with the mind you have now, for Eternity? What do you have with you anyways that’s good enough for Eternity? Do you like any of my proposals? What’s wrong? Isn’t that what you want? I need your answer now, what option do you want? Do you like any of them?

I was playing God in this type of kidding manner to my father and his girlfriend, for they were reminiscing and wishing they were youthful and free as before. They’re both 86, and surprised when I said; “Well, no, I don’t believe you, your just saying that,” and they both asserted “No, we aren’t”. I think most people if they thought deeply about it wouldn’t say such a thing. So, I said, “OK, pretend I’m God, and I’ll give you a choice to do it all over again, with a few conditions, which are set in stone, and I’ll grant you your wish. A short debate ensued, they didn’t hesitate to explore every avenue, I had to explain my reasons and they had to be sound before they moved on, they even tried to negotiate a new deal, but to no avail. After answering all their questions a long pause took over. So, what’ll it be? What’s your answer? His girlfriend put her hands together and bowed her head. I looked to my father and he said in an absolutely sure voice “No! Once is enough”. She raised her head with a smile and said “No way, it’s too chancy, once is enough”. How true that is, for once is enough, there is no need to repeat, and there is no one around to force you to repeat, separation through appearances are in the mind only. There is no need for a second chance, you understand fully the properties of manifestation, and you’ve been inducted into the universe of space and time, and become fully aware of its presence. You exist! That’s your ultimate answer, the finale conclusion is “You Exist!” that wasn’t there before, because it is only understood through living when your faced with the opposite, the feeling of existence that only comes from the threat of nonexistence. You now acquired an Awareness of your own existence in a pool of Awareness. All the information you need about the universe is already ingrained, you just have to stop identifying with a limited resource. Reincarnation is recycling, and recycling is only done in an environment with limited resources, when your dealing with Eternity and infinity there is no need for it, there is a limitless and redundant source.

Kundalini Energy

The energy or life force that flows through the body has a stronger and purer current that runs up the Spinal Column, which is called the kundalini energy. Originating from the base of the Spinal Column the energy travels up to certain intersections called chakras where it can be directed to and from with practice. Certain Yoga’s such as Kriya and Hatha which practice extensive techniques to activate the kundalini in order to raise it to the top Chakra, or the crown of the head, but it takes a lot of time. A qualified SKY master or realized teacher can raise the energy by touch and save the aspirant many years of hard work, but in order to keep it going the student has to establish a routine.

The energy starts off as a slight pressure or vibration in selected areas of the head and body, and grows substantially with time put in; it can actually become too strong if it isn’t kept in check. Any colors, sounds or visuals may occur from misdirection, but should be avoided, as well as excess energy in the brain. You’re looking for the actual feel of moving energy, and avoiding pressure oriented energy which is like a still mass, and the subtle side effects the energy creates with visuals and sounds. The feeling of energy is electrical by nature causing it to act like a loose wire or like static electricity, which can be felt as a tingling sensation. When it gets stronger it can fill up the top of the head with a moving and vibrating stream of energy that feels pleasurable, and at times feels like ants are crawling around on the top of your head. When the energy is activated continually it will have a range of physical effects to the practitioner that helps them in their spiritual maturity. These sensations are all related to a moving electrical current, and when it becomes isolated it will vibrate and feel like a drilling is taking place. Small areas in and all around the brain will feel like little sink holes are popping open, and you have a sense that some sort of rearrangement is taking place. During rare occasions the energy spreads out deep within the brain and you can actually feel the subtle brain cells opening up, which is similar to a thousand of tiny buds or seeds all popping open within a second or two, it’s an amazing feeling.

These are the positive effects from the kundalini, and the negative effects are pressure headaches, facial twitches, excess heat, hyper energy, palpitations and even some serious issues can arise. Keeping it regulated and on track is a must by redirecting it to the starting point, at the base of the spinal column (the mooladhara chakra) will bring relief, or by directing it to other chakras. This is done by refocusing your attention there, which sends the current back down, keeping you in balance. The electrical vibrations and pin points of energy can be felt anywhere in the body, but controlling it is important, because you want it to work for you in a positive way. A controlled and balanced current that applies energy to all the chakras can create a balanced and more peaceful life. Once the energy is felt on the crown chakra, it means all your blockages or intersections are cleared, but staying with the current in one area to long leads to problems, that’s why the art of redirection is employed. Directing and observing the current is the meditation, and it strengthens your concentration, focus, the thoughtless witness, overall health, and the mind from the changing in thought direction.

When the brain is tingling and crawling with energy on a daily bases you notice that you perceive the brain/mind from a distance, which slowly brings you to the conclusion that you are before the mind witnessing it. The perceiver and the perceived goes on within, and a disassociation to the mind/body develops, because you are not what you perceive in life, and the same holds true within the subtle levels of the body. The kundalini energy now gives you a physical point to perceive and reference back from, especially when it’s tingling the lowest area of the brain. If you can perceive it, there must be a perceiver that isn’t it. When you perceive thoughts, there is a perceiver who perceives them, and if there wasn’t a separate witness to perceive the show of words and images, the show couldn’t take place. If the audience looses interest in the show by not reacting to the performance, the show changes accordingly, looking to recapture interest wherever it can. This is where we direct it to the spiritual field, and reestablish a new mind set that doesn’t except the old religious values which entangle us. A new value system takes over that’s not influenced by outside conditions, which creates a loss in value, so you need an ideology that remains consistent above the fringe of those with strict or fluctuating values.

It is also very important that you become aware of the spiritual ego, which can take over during the vulnerable developmental stage, and ruin any hope of progress. For it will be looking for a new home to hang its hat on, and its important not to give it any hooks. Always remain open for serious introspection in order to prevent the mind and ego from beating you down with dogma, ridged ideals, superficial goals, and don’t buy into the self-serving opinions that other people throw at us. You have to be an independent self sufficient spiritual warrior.