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Spirituality

Spirituality is the exit ramp off the expressway of life. It shows you another way of living that isn’t confined and defined by the high speed rat race. It talks about the field of wildflowers that thrive and survive in the stillness of the off ramp, offering a refuge from the nonstop pace. We shouldn’t buy into the brainwashing of society that wants you at the same speed as everyone else, to be more productive, so you can buy more things and donate more money. In today’s religious institutions you get very little in return, a few words of wisdom, a lot of wishful thinking, and a real lack of logical answers to big questions. When it should answer all those questions, after all they do claim to understand the unknown but why are there so many holes in their logic. It should be an informative discussion on finding your own Realization, so you can be as content as the wildflowers which sit in the stillness of a simple existence. It should show you the way by discerning the false from fact, guiding you to your own contentment that is waiting within you. Real spirituality moves away from the outside world of the senses and goes inward to explore the reality that lies beyond appearances.

Being productive in the world is societies beckoning call, however being spiritually productive is God’s beckoning call, and they are related, as far as duty is concerned. You have your duty to the family and to society by creating a stable environment for it to thrive, and a duty to God by worshiping in silence through meditation and contemplation. Meditation is the most important component to spirituality because it activates the thoughtless witness, which usually lays dormant, the witness is the bridge between the Soul (Eternity) and mind. Meditation and introspection on the outside may look unproductive and easy, but on the inside it’s very productive and hard to master. Spirituality is not an easy endeavor; as a matter of fact it might be one of the hardest but most rewarding endeavors of your life. Self-realization will turn your world inside out when you face reality, you no longer see yourself as a human first and foremost. The end goal of spirituality is to see what you really are, Awareness in Eternal space without the body, mind or universe. Then you’re aligned with the truth, and you find your natural state of existence, that was previously glossed over by the manic doer of the untrue. You go back to the beginning of time, where the core of all things sit as one, and you see where it all comes from and where it all ends up. The wisdom of the Saints is now your wisdom, as you blaze your own trail in the realm of spirituality. You will see life and God as clear as the Saints did, and understand the pit falls and stepping stones of the spiritual aspirant, which eventually leads them to contentment.

Spiritual Myths

There are massive amounts of spiritual dogmas out there that place conditions on the spiritual aspirant out of ignorance. The teachers, who are not finding their own bed of wildflowers, speak about others that have, they translate it with the infusion from their own ideals and profess righteousness. In reality, there are no preconditions or outside disciplines to spirituality, just inside work, and it’s an open door for everyone. You could be a big time sinner, an obese meat eater, love sex, lost faith in the religion, atheist, criminal, gay, handicapped, illiterate, mentally challenged, poor or rich, it doesn’t matter. Some religions enforce rules of strict celibacy, diet, vegetarianism, adherence to disciplines, being completely drug and alcohol free, some are even gender, race and culturally biased. When you start using strict conditions like that, it makes it feel like purity is way out of reach, and the feeling of being inadequate, faulty, undesirable and unworthy takes over, along with the guilt and fear of being that way. Spirituality should not endorse abstinence or regulatory disciplines such as penance for sins, for it clearly does not work, has no effect on your spiritual progress whatsoever, in fact it can be counterproductive due to the spiritual ego, however they should endorse moderation. The reality is you can partake in all of the above sins and still reach the ultimate goal of Enlightenment, salvation has no physical prerequisites.

Moderation is the key to be physically and mentally productive, if moderation is not your forte, and you consider yourself a hopeless extremist then understandably you must drop certain vices. Because when it occupies your every thought your metal strength is poor, this battle is won by ignoring the mind. Positive thinking, personal introspection and spiritual contemplation should play a dominate role in the way you use your mind. If spirituality is the main topic in your mind, then the desire to stray is loosing its sway, which means you’re on the right track. It is stepping away from old mental patterns that the rat race induces on your mind, and replacing it with seeds on the fertile spiritual mind that is tilled in silence and introspection. You are not what you perceive yourself to be, nor what society perceives you to be, in order to grasp this and what you really are you have to go within and detach yourself from the perceivable. The imperfect human and world are all part of your personal illusion, and distancing yourself from that is discerning the real you from the perceived you, that is spirituality.

Sins are the acquired baggage of being an imperfect human, and there is no such thing as a perfect human. There is nothing perfect here, perfection lies within your Soul, eternal and changeless never out of reach. All of life is an escape from Perfection, an escape from Reality, to toil in and with imperfection, any distraction in life that diverts your attention away from knowing the truth can be considered a sin. Does it matter what you did in the past or what you are doing now, if you are eventually working on giving up the whole idea of being human with spirituality? That means you are surrendering all of your personal ideals and labels, as well as the body and mind that housed them. Looking away or ignoring the temporary identity that’s attached to the body, and start looking for that identity which doesn’t change, an identity that’s saturated with Eternity or Eternal Awareness. Working towards self-realization is to loosen your hold on a world that is imperfect and transitory for the real world of Absolute Awareness, which is pure and indestructible. You have to relinquish the old value system that held you hostage as a less than holy or perfect person, and know that you are worthy of being spiritual avatar, saint or teacher. It is the divine right of everyone regardless of what transpired. Despite of all the transgressions, you are pure and perfect at the core of your being, and nothing has the power to change that. Go in and reclaim it, by disclaiming the other.

Faded Black

Show me the color
That won’t go away
A color for all
That will stay

I’ll show you
Faded Black

Show me something
That won’t leave me
Decay in front of me
That will be with me

I’ll show you
Faded Black

Show me someone
That won’t leave me
Will love and hold me
That will be with me

I’ll show you
Faded Black

I see nothing that doesn’t
Return to Faded Black
Matter is Faded Black
Eternity is Faded Black

All is Faded Black

The Road to Eternity

You have to surrender the finite 
    To see the infinite
You have to give up on the temporary 
    To see the permanent
You have to Loosen your grip on the fleeting
    To gain the enduring
You have to see the transient as false
    To see the truth as everlasting
You have to look away from the light of the world
    To see the Light of Absolute Awareness
You have to stop believing in appearances
    To start believing in reality
You have to stop listening to the word
    To understand the meaning behind the silence
You have to turn in and away from the senses
    To see that which the senses can’t show you
You have to stop hanging on to the changing
    To see that which is changeless and pure
You have to know the universe as a brief illusion
    To see Eternity as the infinite reality
You have to surrender all
    To gain all
Including the road
    To Eternity

The Appearance of Separation

Real love sees no separation through differences 
    But appearances give us differences that separate us
Desires and fears takeover and give a rank to those differences
    A personal love develops within those conditions
This personal criteria keeps the love confined and limited 
    Based on personal needs, desires, fears and expectations
Due to the appearance of separation
    Love is conditional
Real spirituality knows no separation by appearances
    But appearances create a personal God
To bridge the gap and hide the feeling of separation
    A personal love for God develops defined by criteria and conditions
A conditioned God based on needs, desires, fears and expectations 
    Due to the appearance of separation
God is conditional
    The real love and true God are lost in a personal ideology
Limited and induced by separation love and God is subjective
    To the personal illusion

Is This All You Want?

If you could come back to the world after death and start over, not knowing what you know now, not knowing who and where you will be born, would you do it? If I could snap my fingers right now and end your life, erase everything, you will return to the blank slate of a child in an unknown place and family, would you do it? Even if you’re not happy with the way things are now is it still worth starting over? Would you really take a gamble at a new start, and just hope you don’t land in a terrible place? Isn’t that what everyone wants? A fresh start, a chance to do it all over again, experiencing the pains and pleasures of life in an all new generation. Does that sound like something you want to do? If you wanted to change the world, well, here is your chance to do it, the problem is you will have figure that out each time after erasing everything you know from the previous one.

Press the reset and toss everything away, and you’ll have to go through the same trials and tribulations of life all over again. Making the same mistakes as an immature youth, and face the hash realities of life as an adult in an uncertain future, without insurances, would that make you happy? Even if I let you take your mind with you to the heavens, and start all over with the same mind would you still do it? Is that what you want? Do you really love your mind that much to be stuck with it forever? Is your mind a good thing to take with you? Having an uncontrollable mind that’s on full speed forever, is that a good thing to have? Do you really want something like that haunting you forever? It would bring all your problems with you, fears, desires, anxiety, disharmony, and is that really what you want? Will you be happy and satisfied with the mind you have now, for Eternity? What do you have with you anyways that’s good enough for Eternity? Do you like any of my proposals? What’s wrong? Isn’t that what you want? I need your answer now, what option do you want? Do you like any of them?

I was playing God in this type of kidding manner to my father and his girlfriend, for they were reminiscing and wishing they were youthful and free as before. They’re both 86, and surprised when I said; “Well, no, I don’t believe you, you’re just saying that,” and they both asserted “No, we aren’t”. I think most people if they thought deeply about it wouldn’t say such a thing. So, I said, “OK, pretend I’m God, and I’ll give you a choice to do it all over again, with a few conditions, which are set in stone, and I’ll grant you your wish. A short debate ensued, they didn’t hesitate to explore every avenue, I had to explain my reasons and they had to be sound before they moved on, they even tried to negotiate a new deal, but to no avail. After answering all their questions a long pause took over. So, what’ll it be? What’s your answer? His girlfriend put her hands together and bowed her head. I looked to my father and he said in an absolutely sure voice “No! Once is enough”. She raised her head with a smile and said “No way, it’s too chancy, once is enough”. How true that is, for once is enough, there is no need to repeat, and there is no one around to force you to repeat, separation through appearances are in the mind only. There is no need for a second chance, you understand fully the properties of manifestation, and you’ve been inducted into the universe of pain and uncertainty, time and decay. Why do that again?

You exist! That’s your ultimate answer, the finale conclusion is “You Exist!” that wasn’t there before, because it is only understood through living when your faced with the opposite, the feeling of existence only comes from the threat of nonexistence. You now acquired an Awareness of your own existence in a pool of Awareness. All the information you need about the universe is already ingrained, you just have to stop identifying with a limited resource. Reincarnation is recycling, and recycling is only done in an environment with limited resources, when your dealing with Eternity and infinity there is no need for it, there is a limitless and redundant source.

Kundalini Energy

The energy or life force that flows through the body has a strong current that runs up the Spinal Column, which is called the kundalini energy. Originating from the base of the Spinal Column the energy travels up to certain intersections called chakras where it can be directed to and from with practice. Certain Yoga’s such as Kriya and Hatha which practice extensive techniques to activate the kundalini in order to raise it to the top Chakra, or the crown of the head, but it takes a lot of time. A qualified SKY master or realized teacher can raise the energy by touch and save the aspirant many years of hard work, but in order to keep it going the student has to establish a routine.

The energy starts off as a slight pressure or vibration in selected areas of the head and body, and grows substantially with time put in, it can actually become too strong if it isn’t kept in check. Any colors, sounds or visuals may occur from misdirection, but should be avoided, as well as excess energy in the brain. You’re looking for the actual feel of moving energy, avoiding too much pressure oriented energy which is like a still mass. Subtle side effects from the energy creates visuals and sounds. The feeling of energy is electrical by nature causing it to act like a loose wire or like static electricity, which can be felt as a tingling sensation. When it gets stronger it can fill up the top of the head with a moving and vibrating stream of energy that feels pleasurable, and at times feels like ants are crawling around on the top of your head. When the energy is activated continually it will have a range of physical effects to the practitioner that helps them in their spiritual maturity. These sensations are all related to a moving electrical current, when it becomes isolated it will vibrate and feel like a drilling is taking place. Small areas in and all around the brain will feel like little sink holes are popping open, and you have a sense that some sort of rearrangement is taking place. During rare occasions the energy spreads out deep within the brain, you can actually feel the subtle brain cells opening up, which is similar to a thousand of tiny buds or seeds all popping open within a second or two, it’s an amazing feeling.

These are the positive effects from the kundalini, and the negative effects are pressure headaches, facial twitches, excess heat, hyper energy, palpitations and even some serious issues can arise. Keeping it regulated and on track is a must by redirecting it to the starting point, at the base of the spinal column (the mooladhara chakra), this will bring relief, or by directing it to other chakras. This is done by focusing your attention there, which sends the current back down, keeping it in balance. The electrical vibrations and pin points of energy can be felt anywhere in the body, but controlling it is important, because you want it to work for you in a positive way. A controlled and balanced current that applies energy to all the chakras can create a balanced more energetic life. Once the energy is felt on the crown chakra, it means all your blockages or intersections are cleared, but staying with the current in one area to long leads to problems, that’s why the art of redirection is employed. Directing and observing the current is the meditation, and it strengthens your concentration, focus, the thoughtless witness and overall health.

When the brain is tingling and crawling with energy on a daily bases you notice that you perceiving the brain/mind from a distance, which slowly brings you to the conclusion that you are before the mind witnessing it. The perceiver and the perceived goes on within, and a disassociation to the mind/body develops, you are not what you perceive in life, you are the perceiver. Watching the kundalini energy now gives you a physical sensation to perceive and reference back from, especially when it’s tingling the lowest area of the brain. If you can perceive it, there must be a distance between the perceiver and the perceived. When you perceive thoughts, there is a perceiver who directs and perceives them, there must be a separate witness to perceive the show of thoughts and images, the show couldn’t take place without the witness. If the witness looses interest in the show, the show changes accordingly, looking to recapture interest elsewhere. That means the directing witness is before the mind, so the witness is consciousness that is attached to the Soul and Awareness. This is when we get control over the mind when the witness is directing. Directing the witness is done in deep meditation, a practice in meditation by continually redirecting to a thoughtless state or onto the spiritual field of contemplation reestablishes mind control. The Soul in conjunction with the witness gets permanent separation after Self-Realization allowing you to control the direction of the mind which is a huge perk.

During the vulnerable developmental stage the mind will be looking for a new home to hang its hat on, and its important not to give it any hooks. Always remain open for serious introspection in order to prevent the mind and ego from beating you down. You have to continually work at being an independent self sufficient spiritual warrior.